my adventures in becoming less fat! part 2

So today I tried yet another new work out. I did ultimate Taebo. yeah that's right not just regualr old taebo, but ultimate. and it is no lie. I honest to goodness just did taebo for over an hour and a half. It was super hard. The crazy thing is that I actually did the whole thing. I didn't do bits and pieces i did the whole frickin thing. For most this isn't that big of a deal, but you have to understand where I am coming from when I get this excited about it. I have been heavy my whole life and not just heavy but I have been heavy and have really bad asthma. My attitude toward working out has always been, well I have asthma so I can't really work out. Over the last few days I have found out just how far I can pus myself. I am a bit amazed. Now my problem is going to be staying motivated. I have always had this problem and am going to have to fight really hard to keep going. I WILL BE MUCH THINNER FOR AUDITIONS!!!!

my adventures in becoming less fat!

So I know all of my blogs on this site have been all about Carol and how crazy she is, which she still is. But I thought I would switch it up a bit and talk about something new. Over the last year I have made the decision to take a break from Stage managing and do what I truly love which is acting. This desire was strengthened by the fact that Coal Creek is doing two of my favorite shows of all time. So now I have to throw myself back into acting knowing that I am fat. It is scary. People in theatre seem to think that fat people never fall in love and really never talk to men because we are never cast in any sort of parts besides the best friend. I have had a lot of good parts in this niche but am a bit sick of it. So I have made the decision to work out as much as humanly possible. I am becoming a bit obsessed. I know I should accept and love myself the way I am but doing that thus far has made me unhealthy. I have just started this project and started this journey on Thanksgiving. I started slow on the treadmill right before the big meal. Whoops! Not the best idea I have ever had but oh well at least I worked out. I did the treadmill thing the next few days. On Sunday I discovered the joys of Yoga. Thanks to an excellent teacher I am in love with it and if she were available I would do yoga every day. But since she is not I had to find other ways to keep me entertained and working out. I am the type of person who starts off very eager and excited and rather quickly gives up. But since I have a little more than a month before auditions I can't let that happen. So today I tried something goofy and fun and I know some of you are going to laugh, but I did Carmen Electra's Fit to Strip. It is all cardio and it is killer. Before you laugh and make fun try it and then let me know cause she kicked my butt today. It felt insanely good though. I really hope all this hard work pays off because I am sick of people thinking I am not right for parts based on something so insignificant. I know some of you are thinking if I am sick of being judged on my weight then I picked the wrong business, well you would be right but that doesn't mean I can't change myself to fit in if that is what I have to do to be accepted. I also know some of you read that last sentence and think I am crazy or maybe thinking about this in the wrong way and maybe I am but I am over stage managing and will do whatever it takes to get back to what I love and what makes me happy. I look at it as added incentive to be healthy.